Years back when I met a woman artist friend at her studio
she found a good listener in me and unbundled her life before me. Sinking deep
into a brown leather sofa and sipping an extra large glass full of salty lemon
soda I gave her a patient ear. A story that covers a few north Indian towns and
many continents, lonely journeys into the wintry mornings to hostile government
institutions, false accusations, attorneys, legal tangles, extreme depression
and wrench like grip on optimism would have made into a gripping novel had it
been written down without adding an iota of imagination by the writer or it
would have made into a great cross over movie. It was the journey of a lonely
woman who had found her way to justice not only for her partner and kids but
also for her own wronged self. Back in India, she decided to dedicate her life
completely for making art; more than making art, she wanted to live the life of
an artist. But she was restless. The reason was simple- whatever she painted
turned out to be beautiful flowers. She tried again. Flowers made way to
vegetations and from there to abstractions. It was then she decided to invite
me to her studio to vent her aspirations and frustrations.
By the time the winding narrative culminated into a soulful
reunion of the family, I had sunken further deep into the leather sofa and the
huge glass was still half full with lemonade. I was at a loss for words as the
immensity of her story had fallen on me like an existential weight which wouldn’t
be mine even if I tried to emulate her life. I looked at her; she was mumbling something
to herself while dragging at her cigarette. “Why my works do not speak
anything?” she asked me. The works were already on display along the walls, between
book shelves and on the floor in clumsy half opened rolls. Why, I too thought?
Either she was avoiding the gruel experiences by painting vegetations and
flowers or she was painting what was opposite to her experiences. Whatever be
the case, she was not painting her own self. I could see the torment in her
face. “If you could paint your life, may be people will understand and the
recognition that you have been seeking would come to you easily,” I said. “But
I can’t,” she said. “I do not want to reveal those private sufferings on the
canvases. I want it to be within me, safe and sedated because I have overcome
that trauma. I do not want to relive it,” she went silent for a long time after
stating that.
My friend is still struggling with her art. She has not
found her solace in art and as she has not found it in art, she is still on a
search to find it there itself. Perhaps, her solace is not there in art. Or may
be her frustration comes from the fact that she has all solace and comfort on
the earth but she remains incomplete without doing art. But when she is at her
canvas, she expresses what she is not. Each canvas is a denial and each moment
she stands in front of a complete canvas is a trial by fire, never ending.
Abstraction comes to her naturally because she wants her inner life to be
hoodwinked by abstraction. Abstract art sometimes is a vessel into which one
could pour any kind of meaning, mostly transcendental kinds. Or it could be her
lack of craft in painting figures due to lack of practice. One wouldn’t accept
this view if you prefer to tell an artist so. Ability to craft an object/image
by paints or by chisel or by any other medium could be a curse at times because
your skill to make it or spoil it would tell the truth to the world; even bad
skill needs some sort of consistency to prove its status as a skilled style.
Abstraction could be a boon for it could hide not only your inabilities but
also your own inner self. What you need to do is to cover it up with
transcendental jargon, which comes so cheap in Osho publications.
I did not judge my friend as I was listening to her story
and looking at her works. Even today I do not judge her because it is her life
and art and she is responsible for both. But I understand that she is not the
only one; she is not the only one who refuses to address their own selves. Most
of the artists are like that. Talking about the gendered selves in art, female
artists suffer from this. They want to speak out and explore their own selves
in their works. But they are afraid of the society, the family, husband,
children and finally their own selves. Recently I came across a woman artist
whose canvases had a lot of images that represent female genitals. I asked her whether
she was celebrating her autonomy as a sexual subject. Upon hearing this
question she gasped and blatantly refused her intention to create an autonomous
subjectivity for herself. When I insisted that I could see female sexual organs
in her works, she said it was just accidental formations and she never thought
they looked like vulva. That was quite a disclaimer! May be art is in the eyes
of the onlooker, one could say. If you are looking for a vagina in a woman’s
canvas may be you will see one somewhere. But I was not looking for one. Women
artists refuse to acknowledge their bodily autonomy in India due to many reasons
including moral perceptions of the society and the replication of patriarchal
values.
A few woman artists have acknowledged their physical as well
as mental autonomy and by hook or crook, with good skill or without skill at
all they all have made it in the market and in the intellectual circuits. If
you ask why most of the women artists in India fail to earn a name (even if
they earn fame they are temporal and lasting only till the end of the
exhibition and page three appearances and a few paid writings here and there) I
would say it is because of their fear to express their own minds. They are so worried
about their domestic and social roles as daughters, wives and mothers that they
want to replicate the patriarchal values that define a good woman. Right from
Karwachot fasting to washing and powdering a wife beating husband they want to
be perfect social beings first and artists next. And the moment they hit their
studios or workspaces, they become rebellious and the rebellion takes the turn
of complaint than bold statements through art forms. These complaining selves
find the final vent in abstract art because this art language gives them social
dignity (because it is sexless), modernity (because abstraction is a pure
invention of modernity) and gender parity (because abstract art cannot be seen
in gender terms because hardly there is something to identity as gender even if
there are vaginal and penile appearances by chance or by design). Complaints
also manifest in the form of moral critique on other successful women artists,
often doubting their abilities to hop beds.
Another debilitating factor that Indian women artists (the
majority) suffer from is their perceptions on feminism. As these women artists
do not take any pain to understand their art or their lives (maximum what they
do is to find a mentor who would be another abstractionist idiot or attending
satsang and yoga classes) they view feminism as a marriage breaking ideology.
Yes, feminists could break marriages and homes (depending on the emphasis that
one gives on the reasons of such breakages) but at the same time we pretend not
to see the number of marriages broken by non-feminists. If someone does a stock
taking, one could see that maximum home breakings come from non-feminists women
and men. Like they understand Communism as a foreign wife snatching ideology
(along with land and socio-economic opportunities), feminism is understood by
them as a spoiler of their own beliefs. They do not recognize the fact that
there are feminisms and the slogan ‘personal is political’ comes from such
varied possibilities of feminisms. Though many feminists have misused the ‘personal
is political’ slogan for ulterior motives, feminisms is a relevant theoretical
tool that has to renew itself at every turning of the annals of contemporary
history as events unfold in breakneck pace. But our women artists seem to be
absolutely unaware of all these. They are happy with their karwachots and
fasting.
If one asks why there are no great Indian woman artists, the
answer should be sought in the above cited points. Artists who are not able to
take a position in their own art can’t be good or successful artists. It is
applicable to both men and women. The histories that we have built around our
women artists like Amrita Sherghil, T.K.Padmini, Nasreen Mohammedi and so on
are juvenile histories. Amrita Sherghil was a seeker of opportunities. She
worked when India’s nationalist struggle was in full swing and her imagination
seemed to have untouched by all those struggles. Amrita Shergil did not create a
feminine language of her own but what made her important was her European
experience and lineage that gave her a larger edge in the art scene than even
her male counterparts. T.K.Padmini is an artist who passed away before she
could really evolve as an artist. What we have as her oeuvre is the embodiment
of her urgency to be at par with the male colleagues of her time. At times,
they do not even move beyond stylised illustrations. Nasreen Mohammedi is
perhaps an over rated artist for her minimalism which could be read at par with
the conceptual works of Sol Lewitt. As history was written from those quarters
certain inclusions became imperative and also when there were no woman artists
to reckon with, whoever showed the potentialities of becoming a bold artist got
a permanent place in the modern art history of India.
India could have great women artists only when they are able
to express their own selves freely. Quasi and shy approaches to self will never
make a good woman artist. Even if we have a few names in Indian contemporary
art scene who have transcended the boundaries to become international artists,
their art is basically read and judged by the parameters created by the western
art historians, theoreticians, critics and curators. Even in their bold
attempts to politicize their stance and art languages one could see a
tremendous amount of abstraction, means going from the concrete and particular
to the generic which gives them an immediate recognition as ‘international’
art. When one of our woman artists scream it finds its resonances historically
in the scream of Yoko Ono. When one artist cuts meat to write words, it becomes
a surrogate Abromovic act. We have a few bold woman artists in India but they
are not yet been included in the high profile shows. May be it takes a few more
years for them to replace the sanitized women artists who do politically
correct sanitized art now.
(all images from net. For illustrative purpose only)
well written.
ReplyDeleteIn life everyone learn to crawl, walk then run. But sadly in Art scenario it's just the opposite.