(JML in 2008. Renu Ramanath who edited artconcerns for a while is also in the picture)
When I sit to write my 500th blog post, I am
overwhelmed by emotions. I thank all my readers; many of them I have known
personally and many are still a photograph in the Facebook and yet another lot
are those people who come and tell me that they read my blogs and they like it,
whenever I travel out of Delhi. Thank you all. I have recounted once the reason
for starting a blog in 2008. It was a challenge with an American friend at an
art opening in Delhi that triggered the idea of blog in me. He had a blog and
he said he was so fast. I told him I was faster. Then I was editing www.artconcerns.com, which is redundant
now after three years of existence (2006-09). I started the blog with the help
of a friend who was better in technology than me. Soon I learnt the techniques
of posting and it became a habit. Initially I promoted it through a side bar in
artconcerns and later through Facebook.
What I learnt from blogging was a very simple but a very
pivotal lesson: If you have an opinion and if you are bold enough to express it
in public you need not wait for any big magazine to invite you to write for it.
You should be truthful to what you say and you should believe in what you say.
You should have a style and you should have a convincing argument. And above
all you should have the patience to sit for a couple of hours and jot down your
ideas into a readable essay. Fundamentally you should be disciplined enough to
maintain a blog. Blogging is not an easy job as most of the people think. Your
opinions could hurt others, challenge their sentiments and hamper their image.
In your blog you become the write, editor and publisher, and as you know the
responsibility is many times graver than when you are just a published writer.
You could be sued for your opinion expressed in your blog. I have faced a
Rs.250 Crore defamation suit for writing a blog, which fortunately fizzled out
eventually. That means, when you write a blog not only you earn a friendly reader
but also you earn a lot of enemies.
(JML 2009)
Blogging became a boon for me when I found some of my views
were not palatable to the publishing houses that brought out magazines. Also I
found that most often the copy editors of the magazines severely punish the
copies by rewriting them and almost killing them by homogenizing the style. A
writer is recognized for his or her style. Most of the art magazines do not
promote a personalized style of the writer. When I was the editor of
www.mattersof art.com, www.artconcerns.com , later the editor of Art and Deal
and the Guest Editor of Art Etc, what I tried to promote was the style of the
writer. I am happy to tell you that I could bring out a set of young writers
with distinct style during my tenure as the editor of those two online
magazines mentioned above and the editor of Art and Deal.
When I started off as a full time writer in Delhi in mid
1990s, there were not enough avenues to get the articles published. I wrote my
pieces and went to each and every newspaper office in Delhi and asked the page
editors whether they wanted my pieces. Some of them accepted my writings and
some of them rejected. I was fortunate enough to have a few good editors who
helped me to flower as a writer. Though I had started writing in Malayalam in
1980s itself, writing from/in Delhi gave me a larger audience and more
authentic voice. However, I would add that it took many years to polish my
skills and strengthen my determination to be a writer. Today I am happy to say
that I could find my daily bread through writing and writing only. It needed perseverance
and discipline. I remember reading each and every magazine and newspaper
published in India (in English and Malayalam) for years together and stacking them
up against the walls in a flat where we lived in those days. Parting with them
was very painful. One day I called a kabari walla (who buys old papers and
utensils) to home. Upon seeing those huge piles of magazines he asked me
whether I myself was a kabari walla! Preparation, practice and perseverance,
that’s what makes one a writer or a blogger.
(JML 2010)
Towards the end of 1990s, newspaper spaces for art criticism
was shrinking. Its place was taken over by automobile and real estate
advertisements. A person like me who was depending completely on writing
features and reviews found it heart wrenching experience. I continued to be a
writer by joining certain magazines and journals as a staff reporter. By 2005 I
could come up with the first online magazine in India for art, www.mattersofart.com and then www.artconcerns.com in 2006. I do not
want to glorify myself as a blogger. But I have only one advice for the young
and aspiring writers; you need not wait for the great gods from the sky to give
you an opportunity. If you have an opinion, please write and post. It will take
time to catch up with the public imagination. We are living in a world where
soothsaying is what everyone wants. People read or cursorily look at
soothsaying types of writing and forget them eminently. But when you tell
truth, call spade a spade, people will hate you but they will secretively
admire you and your writing.
I remember one of my artist friends commenting on my social
status as a critic and blogger. He said: You see JML, everyone wants to read
you and really appreciate your way of telling it. But they are afraid of saying
it out because it would bring a few enemies for themselves. They are like the
god fearing people caught between a pack of atheists who have better arguments.
The god lover wants to supplicate when he passes a temple but he does not want
to give away to the atheists. So what he does is that he raises his hand to his
chest as if he was scratching away some imaginary itch. People scratch their
chests when they see you though they don’t openly salute you.” I take my
friends words as a compliment though I don’t get carried away by compliments as
I know very well that any time anybody could turn a staunch enemy depending on
my next writing.
(JML 2011)
Initially, I thought of writing only general issues in my
blog as I was writing a lot on art in many magazines and my own web magazines.
But soon I realized that I should not shun the opportunities to put my ideas
into a blog form. I started writing about anything that fascinated me. I feel
that my blogging is a sort of prayer for me and a very blissful experience. I
do not worry about the number of people reading my blogs. Google Analytics
gives me a day to day picture of my blog’s reach. Some postings are visited
40,000 times by readers. I do not minimize the support of my readers. I owe
them a lot. When I write I am not conscious of my reader but like Orhan Pamuk
once said I hide a secret message for the reader, which is extremely personal
and humane. When the reader gets that message he/she smiles. That’s the moment
of real communication for me.
2 comments:
5oo thanks ,Ayyan.
Admired a lot, salute to you!!!!
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