In the morning while walking I try not to think anything
else. A first round that lasts for fifteen minutes helps me to focus on my body
movements and the next three rounds my body automatically moves in increased
pace rhythmically till the heat of moisture develops between my back and the
T-shirt. Walking in the same park, almost at the same time every day brings you
closer to people as the initial curious looks in their eyes give way to a
budding smile. There is an acknowledgement in the air in which people feel
comfortable in their jogging tracks; some lost in the music flowing into them
through the ear plugs and some lost in their own thoughts, and yet another set
of people seriously lost to the world in their animated talks between each
other. Namastes, backslaps, guffaws and hushed up secrets are passed between
fellow walkers on the tracks where very few like me prefers to walk alone in
utter silence. The moment I enter the park for my morning walk Haruki Murakami
welcomes me like an apparition and I remember his most touching book on jogging
and marathon running, ‘What I talk about when I talk about Running.’ Murakami
has said the best things about jogging in poetic, romantic and very dream-like words
that would make a reader just get on his feet and run.
When I walk I do not want to talk but my mind keeps
conjuring up things and eventually I talk to myself about things that are gone by
and that are yet to come. It is very difficult to keep the mind silent and I
look at those people doing silent meditation on park benches or under the trees
and wonder whether their minds would let them be in utter silence and
stillness. I am nobody to judge their minds or bodies or souls only because my
mind does not remain silent for a moment. However, of late I have found peace
with myself while walking and once I have found peace with my own body and its
rhythms, my mind could go vacant. If I find it really difficult to keep the
mind from wandering into the past, I give a topic to myself so that I could
formulate ideas around it. Some exciting ideas come to me like that of which a
few of them are used later in my writings. When the mind is really silent and
moves with the rhythm of the body, then the totality of my existence starts
listening to the surrounding sounds. I could hear the birds singing from the
bushes and trees, beetles and bees bussing, dogs barking, cats mewing, parrots
chirping chorus and pigs snorting from behind the thickets. I could also hear
the voices of souls from the annals of Sultanate history in Delhi as the park has
a few ruins of forts, mosques and temples. I am sure the temples are new arrivals.
If there is a mosque can temples be far behind?
Sometimes I get really curious about what people talk while
they walk and over a period I have come to realise that they not only speak but
also emit certain fragrances, very peculiar to the place. What I hear often is
the word ‘money’. From the talks I could recognise the profession of the
people. I do not say most of them are into real estate development. They must
be from varied backgrounds but most of them speak only about money. I smile to myself
when I eavesdrop on their chats. Someone complaints about the money has to get.
Someone is worried about the money he has paid. Someone else is hopeful about
the huge sum he is going to make out of a deal. The more they walk the more
they pant and talk about money. I feel there is no end to this talk of money. I
see couples seasoned by age and experience walk in unison talking about money.
I wonder why people are so much hooked up to one single word, money. Everyone
needs money and everyone makes money. But everyone is overtly worried about
money. I remember Ruskin Bond talking about money. He says that we all need
money but just to live and a little more. There is no point in amassing wealth.
If you are gifted in making wealth out of nothing, yes you should and amass wealth.
But such people are not greedy about making more. It is their responsibility to
create wealth out of wealth. Unfortunately the majority is not gifted with this
talent of making money from nothing or out of something. They keep worrying
about what they already have, complaint about the money that they don’t have
and aspire for what they would have at some point of time. But they are simply
wasting time. In this world, maximum number of people wastes their life in
worrying about money.
Women talk about food as if they do not have anything else
to talk about. I have walked in many parks in many parts of the world. Only in
India I hear morning walking women speaking about food. I hear the words ‘paratha’,
‘aloo’, ‘dal’, ‘roti’, ‘sabji’, ‘chawal’, ‘kadi’, ‘dahi’, ‘pulav’ and what not.
They just do not talk anything else. People say women gossip about other women
or men. But my experience is that most of the women worry about the food that
they have laid out on the dinner table on the previous night or they are going
to do for the lunch. Some are worried about the lunch boxes of their kids and
husbands. Some are worried about the food that they would cook for their
guests. I feel sad. Don’t they have anything else to talk? Men make money.
Women make food. Period. Life goes on. Men make money, they take the women folk
for shopping, and they shop, come back, cook food and feed the family. Between
money and food people waste their lives. They forget to see that there is a
different world of sight and sounds, of birds and animals, of little things
waiting for them. Even in the middle of the nature they speak about money and
food.
They have fragrances too. Some of them smell of potatoes.
You do not need to sniff them to know the smell. From a distance itself you
could recognize their smell. It is an internal understanding which cannot be
explained. Some women smell of aloo parathas. Some of them smell of chilly
power. Some of them have the smell of seas. Some of them have the smell of
markets. Some of them emit the smell of hopes. Some of them have the fragrance
of dreams. Some of them carry garden within them. Some of them smell like
paints and turpentine. They are like landscapes too. Some of them look like
white landscapes. Some are green ones. Some are like endless sea shores. Some
are hills, some are valleys, some are storms and some are showers. Some break
out like a lightning and some others boom like thunder. Some are like whimpers.
Some are like an unsaid word. Some are like a broken rainbow. Some are like a
swan with a broken wing. Some are like monkeys and some are like caged tigers.
Some carry an aviary with them. And some are like sea shells carrying the
memories of seas.
I see them all. And my mind after a point goes blank.
Someone asks me time as I am wearing a wrist watch. I take at least thirty
seconds to tell the time. The habit has gone. Now a digital screen shows the
time. But I can measure time without looking at a mobile or watch or computer.
I am like a blind man. I can count the paces and calculate the distance. I can
look out through the window and tell the time. I am going behind the time. I am
going back in time. I live my life in a cave. Like primitive human beings I try
to learn things from the scratch. I do not understand most of the things around
me. But I understand that happy people smile and angry people frown. I know
that if I extend my palms I may receive alms. I realise that if I am empty and
ready to receive whatever they give me, I can fill myself with their love and
charity. I understand that they more you go near the earth the more you touch
the truth of things. I have reached a stage where now nothing matters. So I
walk four rounds in a park and the world reveals its truth before my eyes.
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